Worship Wednesday: Find You On My Knees

Maybe I should really call "Worship Wednesday", "Song of the Week". It seems like most weeks of my life a new song pops on that God uses to speak life into me. Of course, singing and music are part of worship, but worship is so much more than that. Anyways...that is a topic for another time.

Lately, I have been struggling with the mundane. The every day life. I KNOW in my head that what I am doing every day is so important. God is using me to mold these little people that He has entrusted me with for some reason. But my heart...oh my heart....has not been in the right place. When the kids are especially disrespectful or when the house is a disaster because they spend the day taking things out but not putting things away...I feel like a failure. In my head, it becomes my fault. I must not be disciplining them enough or teaching them responsibility enough. 

It is a real struggle with me because we really want our kids to have time being kids. That is one of the main reasons that we are home schooling. I don't want them to spend their days picking up and besides, isn't it so much faster and easier to do it myself! haha.

Just like any other job I have had (or that anyone else I know has had) I go through valleys. I feel weary and broken and thirsting for God. I need to be on my knees.

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I have been feeling mundane. I looked up the definition of Mundane just for fun and here it is:

mun·dane

ˌmənˈdān/

adjective

1. 1.

   lacking interest or excitement; dull.

   "seeking a way out of his mundane, humdrum existence"

   synonyms:

   humdrum, dull, boring, tedious, monotonous, tiresome, wearisome,unexciting, uninteresting, uninvolving, uneventful, unvarying,unremarkable, repetitive, repetitious, routine, ordinary, everyday, day-to-day, run-of-the-mill, commonplace, workaday;
2. 2.

   of this earthly world rather than a heavenly or spiritual one.

   "the boundaries of the mundane world"

   synonyms:

   earthly, worldly, terrestrial, material, temporal, secular, areligious

3. 
   

Wow...Both definitions fit what I have been feeling and you know what...it is NOT Godly. I think they go together and it could make someone spiral downhill really fast. 

But I heard this song the other day and it really just woke me up a bit. When I get down (and I will) or feel like the World is caving in around me, the reality is that I am looking and longing for God. He lifts us up, He doesn't leave us thirsty.

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